Nichkhun

suju_ari


There are people in my life who are my miracle :)

Smiles makes me smile (:


Happy birthday Angel Teukie~~
Nichkhun
suju_ari


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEUKIE TEUKIE~~~

We Love you~~~

HIATUS!!!
Nichkhun
suju_ari
ARI IS GOING TO BE ON HIATUS FOR THE NEXT 1 1/2 WEEK!!!

I got the exams T__________________________________________________________T
NOES!!! I NEED MY SUJU!!!! DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDx
*grabby hands*

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DYING FOR MY EXAMS DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDX

You know?? The boys can kidnap me now to save me from my exams xDDDDDDDDDD

Henry??? Sungie oppa?? Minnie Oppa??? Save ari?? xDDDDDDDDDDDD

Fairytales...
Nichkhun
suju_ari
I want to be Cinderella/Jasmine/Belle or my personal favorite Ariel!!
Why?

Cause Their dreams ALWAYS come true...

I want a fairy godmother/genie/magician? to fulfill my wishes...
then again, they say to be careful of what you wish for...

Can I wish to be normal?
Is that asking too much??
Am I being selfish for that???

I am going insane,
my doctor's words are running through my head everyday...
"It is not normal for someone your age to not be able to run and jump around!"
"No strength in your legs? So fast?? That is not normal!!"
"You probably feel happy that you don't have to do the sports that your friends are doing right?"

My friends' words...I know you guys probably meant it as a joke...but hey it still stings lots ok??
"People bring tents to camp...You bring TYS (Ten Year Series - past year exam papers) to camp!!"
"Yes? Ms Broken Back?"

YOU PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND!!
I AM GOING THROUGH HELL!!!
YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE!!
imagine being unable to sit for more than an hour!
imagine the fear of your legs being paralyzed!
imagine being unable to control your legs and hands just because the nerve connections is cut off!! (for about five to ten mins)
YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!

I just remembered that it has been five years...
five long years...
five long darn years since the injury started...
Five long years of hell
but it is just the beginning of what is coming...
This is going to be long term...like FOREVER

Who am I kidding??
There is no such thing as a fairytale or magic...
I don't even think there are things like miracles anymore...

FAIRYTALES HAVE HAPPY ENDINGS CAUSE...

THEY ARE LIES......

Warning! emo post...
Nichkhun
suju_ari
It is bad...getting really bad...
Pain starts about maybe 30 to 45 mins after sitting?
I cant even study properly...damn it...
It hurts even when I am sleeping!!
I cant even sleep properly anymore...which is bad!! cos I am now sleep deprived!!
Not good because the exams are next week!!!

I am getting real bad migrains...
and
who the hell gets dizzy while sitting down?
ANSWER? = ME =_______________=

I am really sick of all this...
random illness as and when my body feels like it?
I almost felt the car "flew" past me today!!

I hate this...

Man...I am getting more depressed each day...

Oh...on the bright side?
I got my mom to understand that the Chinese physician = NO GOD
even he said that the injury is permanent...

I am fed up...BIG TIME...

Mom knows best?? maybe not...
Nichkhun
suju_ari
Mummy told me to see the chinese doctor...
says that only he can cure my back...

I told her

Lets just remove my spine and let me be wheelbounded for the rest of my life!!
So there will be no more pain...
no more please, no more....It just hurts too much...

Ari hates herself...
Nichkhun
suju_ari
Exams are coming...
I am slacking...
I am failing bad...
I am not getting anything...

My head is hurting
My back is hurting
My shoulder is hurting
I am hurting everywhere...

I am stripped of my dreams
I am never good enough in other's eyes

I am going insane...
I am talking to myself...
I am imagining things that will never happen...
I am losing myself fast...

I am tired of being who I am
WHO am I??
I am a failure... ... ...

I hate it...
I hate this...
I hate myself...

I should just end it all...should I??

OH NOES!!
Nichkhun
suju_ari
I WILL BE GONE FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! D::::::::::::::::::

That means NO SUJU + NO COMPUTER + NO MP3 FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS!!!!!!!!! DDDDDDDD:

NO SUJU + NO COMPUTER + NO MP3 FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS = DEAD ARI!!!! -goes to corner and cries-

SOMEONE SEND ME SUJU HAPPY'S SONGS ON FRIDAY???? PLEASE????????????

I can't believe I am actually saying this...
Nichkhun
suju_ari
I MISS MY BABY SISTER!!! D:

I KNOW!!! we usually scream at each other like ALOT!!!
but she is still my baby sister!!! well she is not that baby anymore...butbutbut...
I miss her!!! 

The house is sooooo quiet without her annoying screams DDDDDDDDD:

She has left for China with her school for not even one day!!!! I MISS HER LOTS ALREADY D: 
AND SHE IS GOING FOR A WEEK!!!!
;__; 

Be safe in China~ and HAVE FUN!!! Baby dongsaeng, Unnie loves you~~



ARI WANTS HER BABY DONGSAENG BACK!!! ;___;




 

IT IS OFFICIAL!!!
Nichkhun
suju_ari

I AM OBSESSED WITH BABY HENRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



BUTBUTBUTBUTBUT THAT SMILE -is dead-






I made this cause I was bored... 8D
I FAIL AT CREATIVITY~~~ 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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Nichkhun
suju_ari

My Korean name is Han Soo-Young.
Take Korean Name Generator today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.



Ok~ I tried this korean name generator~
It seems like that I am supposed to be a Han Hannie's sister maybe?? XDXDXD 

But I like Ari better~~ haha
Soooooo...maybe my name is Soo-Young 
But still call me Ari??? -puppy eyes-

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