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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEUKIE TEUKIE~~~

We Love you~~~

ARI IS GOING TO BE ON HIATUS FOR THE NEXT 1 1/2 WEEK!!!

I got the exams T__________________________________________________________T
NOES!!! I NEED MY SUJU!!!! DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDx
*grabby hands*

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DYING FOR MY EXAMS DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDX

You know?? The boys can kidnap me now to save me from my exams xDDDDDDDDDD

Henry??? Sungie oppa?? Minnie Oppa??? Save ari?? xDDDDDDDDDDDD

I want to be Cinderella/Jasmine/Belle or my personal favorite Ariel!!
Why?

Cause Their dreams ALWAYS come true...

I want a fairy godmother/genie/magician? to fulfill my wishes...
then again, they say to be careful of what you wish for...

Can I wish to be normal?
Is that asking too much??
Am I being selfish for that???

I am going insane,
my doctor's words are running through my head everyday...
"It is not normal for someone your age to not be able to run and jump around!"
"No strength in your legs? So fast?? That is not normal!!"
"You probably feel happy that you don't have to do the sports that your friends are doing right?"

My friends' words...I know you guys probably meant it as a joke...but hey it still stings lots ok??
"People bring tents to camp...You bring TYS (Ten Year Series - past year exam papers) to camp!!"
"Yes? Ms Broken Back?"

YOU PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND!!
I AM GOING THROUGH HELL!!!
YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE!!
imagine being unable to sit for more than an hour!
imagine the fear of your legs being paralyzed!
imagine being unable to control your legs and hands just because the nerve connections is cut off!! (for about five to ten mins)
YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!

I just remembered that it has been five years...
five long years...
five long darn years since the injury started...
Five long years of hell
but it is just the beginning of what is coming...
This is going to be long term...like FOREVER

Who am I kidding??
There is no such thing as a fairytale or magic...
I don't even think there are things like miracles anymore...

FAIRYTALES HAVE HAPPY ENDINGS CAUSE...

THEY ARE LIES......

It is bad...getting really bad...
Pain starts about maybe 30 to 45 mins after sitting?
I cant even study properly...damn it...
It hurts even when I am sleeping!!
I cant even sleep properly anymore...which is bad!! cos I am now sleep deprived!!
Not good because the exams are next week!!!

I am getting real bad migrains...
and
who the hell gets dizzy while sitting down?
ANSWER? = ME =_______________=

I am really sick of all this...
random illness as and when my body feels like it?
I almost felt the car "flew" past me today!!

I hate this...

Man...I am getting more depressed each day...

Oh...on the bright side?
I got my mom to understand that the Chinese physician = NO GOD
even he said that the injury is permanent...

I am fed up...BIG TIME...

Mummy told me to see the chinese doctor...
says that only he can cure my back...

I told her

Lets just remove my spine and let me be wheelbounded for the rest of my life!!
So there will be no more pain...
no more please, no more....It just hurts too much...

Exams are coming...
I am slacking...
I am failing bad...
I am not getting anything...

My head is hurting
My back is hurting
My shoulder is hurting
I am hurting everywhere...

I am stripped of my dreams
I am never good enough in other's eyes

I am going insane...
I am talking to myself...
I am imagining things that will never happen...
I am losing myself fast...

I am tired of being who I am
WHO am I??
I am a failure... ... ...

I hate it...
I hate this...
I hate myself...

I should just end it all...should I??

I WILL BE GONE FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! D::::::::::::::::::

That means NO SUJU + NO COMPUTER + NO MP3 FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS!!!!!!!!! DDDDDDDD:

NO SUJU + NO COMPUTER + NO MP3 FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS = DEAD ARI!!!! -goes to corner and cries-

SOMEONE SEND ME SUJU HAPPY'S SONGS ON FRIDAY???? PLEASE????????????

Hey everyone~~

Ari here got herself a Facebook account!!!
Add Ari?? ^______________________________^

Thanks
add me at snow_angel_csw@yahoo.com.sg

I MISS MY BABY SISTER!!! D:

I KNOW!!! we usually scream at each other like ALOT!!!
but she is still my baby sister!!! well she is not that baby anymore...butbutbut...
I miss her!!! 

The house is sooooo quiet without her annoying screams DDDDDDDDD:

She has left for China with her school for not even one day!!!! I MISS HER LOTS ALREADY D: 
AND SHE IS GOING FOR A WEEK!!!!
;__; 

Be safe in China~ and HAVE FUN!!! Baby dongsaeng, Unnie loves you~~



ARI WANTS HER BABY DONGSAENG BACK!!! ;___;




 

I AM OBSESSED WITH BABY HENRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUTBUTBUTBUTBUT THAT SMILE -is dead-






I made this cause I was bored... 8D
I FAIL AT CREATIVITY~~~ 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

My Korean name is Han Soo-Young.
Take Korean Name Generator today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

Ok~ I tried this korean name generator~
It seems like that I am supposed to be a Han Hannie's sister maybe?? XDXDXD 

But I like Ari better~~ haha
Soooooo...maybe my name is Soo-Young 
But still call me Ari??? -puppy eyes-

01. Would you fart inside an elevator?
> erm... I don't think so... I find it -coughs-

02. What will you do if the person you like doesn't like you back?
> Be friends??

03. Miss Piggy + Kermit the Frog = OTP???
> -coughs-

04. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
> kinda... College....hmmmm

5. What's your ideal lover like?
> hmmm... :D IT IS A SECRET!!! XD but he must be around 12 cm taller than me~~ haha

06. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
> both~~~

07. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
> ermm...we will see~~

08. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
> I wish him all the best :)

09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
> Results??? -GRRRR-

10. What do you want most in life?
> everyone to be healthy and safe~

11. Is being tagged fun?
> Sometimes

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
> I hope that you two are happy :)

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
> family and friends

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
> an unnie of a certain puppy dongsaeng :D

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
> hmmm...single I guess...I need to money for medical bills?? But I want to have a kid though... :)

16. Would you rather be a bum or be a busy person?
> hmmm...

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
> I will try...

18. Define LOVE
>friendship...family...etc this is hard D:

19. Milk chocolate, white chocolate or dark chocolate?
> DARK!!!! white and milk are fattening!!!

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
> HAHA -hugs-


These eight people must state who they were tagged by.
You cannot tag the person who tagged you.
Continue this game by sending this to eight other people.

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I cannot believe this... u___u 

My econs/ co CT told me that I am reaching dangerous waters... 
My chem/CT also hinted that she wanted to see me having the original energy that I had for my studies before...

all this = I AM A POTENTIAL RETAINEE...
WTH...
This is really demoralising...
I mean...what is the point of staying up till 3 in the mornings just to finish doing tutorials and studying for tests???? or if I am lucky... do some revisions...
I have studied till I AM SICK!!! 
Yet to fail all tests but maths?? I am such a failure...

I cried...in a corner of the college...
I told Mommy that I might repeat Year One...
Mommy didnt scold me or anything... ^__________^ which I thought she would... 
NAH SHE SUPPORTED ME!!! 
She actually said 'If that happens, it can't be helped.' in a really encouraging tone, not her usual -I think you can't make it- tone!!! 
She told me to enjoy school, not be too stressed out or anything
I love you Mommy~~~ 

But College is really terrible... I mean tutorials, PW, Exco and all... U_____________U
I am feeling really dizzy now... plus headaches and all...

Pei Wen...you are not helping...
I cant believe you want me to quit my position as President of Guzheng...
just to let you know...
I will never let that lazy idiot take over me...
If it was someone else, I wouldnt mind...but she is a lazy, selfish person who doesnt give a damn about Guzheng... 
So Pei Wen pls? support me? I know you are not in my college so maybe you dont understand... -hugs- 

I HATE STUDYING...
I HATE MY LIFE...
I HATE MY POOR HEALTH...

I THINK I WILL REPEAT YEAR ONE...
I AM SUCH A FAILURE...I HATE MYSELF... u__________u 

Someone please... save me... -cries- 

I am a pathetic fool...

Bambi Unnie says that I look like Henry here in this photo XD
She thinks that I am Henry's long lost sister 8DDDDDDDDDDD -i wish- Lol
Do I really look like him???
Make reference to the bottom photo XDXD

Finally the musical is over~~
I have some photos to share ~~~ 
They are soooo pretty~~~




THE MUSICAL GUZHENG~~~ missing some people though );
I swear...I look weird u.u but I LOVE THE OUTFIT~~~
I love you all!!! besides someone...



My favorite J1s~~~ They are now my EXCO~~~ Love ya babes~~!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD
I LOVE THIS PHOTO~~~ IT IS SO PRETTY AND PERFECT~~~ hehe
From the right: Treasurer, President - ME 8D, Secretary
Bottom: Sectional Leader
and I am not the only one who cant stand her... so yeah... 
Majority of Guzheng hates her anyway... J1s AND J2s... u____u 



MY CRAZY BUT TOTALLY WONDERFUL AND AWESOME SENIORS~~~ LOVE YOU GUYS!!! But we are missing our little fair lady D: 




MY NEW FRIEND~~ A SUJU FAN!!! -wiggles-  Love ya girl~~

I GOT MY SOLO BACK PEOPLE~~ NO CHEERS YET PLS...
The teachers are still not on good terms...
So I am still kinda worried that they might still change it...=___________=

Happy??? well yeah...
I trained like lots for this...

Guilty??? I feel kinda bad as well...
My friend was soooo disappointed that she didnt get the part again...

Stressed... CONFIRM!!!
THE MUSICAL IS THIS SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today totally sucked...
firstly...

THEY CHANGED THE FUCKING SOLO AGAIN!!!!!!!!! D:
SERIOUSLY....GET A LIFE!!!! JUST BECAUSE YOU TWO CANNOT DECIDE...
THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT THE TWO OF YOU CAN PLAY AROUND WITH MY FEELINGS AND THE OTHER GIRL'S!!!!
damn... they totally destroyed the remaining confidence...trust...and my heart...
Mommy and my friends were all soooo upset when they heard this...
WN, HS, YW = good friends They were worried that I was too upset about it...
Not that I showed it of course...


and it totally didnt help that my back has and is still hurting for the whole damn day!!!


I HATE MY LIFE....- ari wants her Sungie-

I got my solo back ~~~~ I am happy of course ~

But it is kinda bittersweet ~because it was at the cost of my friend's confidence as well!!! DDDD: 
But the pressure is back now!!! 
The musical is just next week!!!! -panics- 

OMG SUPER JUNIOR M = HOT ~~~ 
Their album~~~ -jumps around- 
I will still buy~~ although I have the songs already!!!